Final words.

I say,

"About those words I said telling you to go away, I really meant it. Things are getting harder, and about you, it did not turn out as I expected. I want to stop wasting my time counting on you and on hopes. I have loved you for a long time and that's not what I want to discuss. I know there is something fishy going on with your studies and yourself. Don't explain, okay? I don't feel like being a confidante. And you won't tell either. I am just a fragile, unfortunate delicate child who can't deal with too much pressure. I don't want us to get into another serious quarrel. I don't want that to happen 'cause if it happened once again, just once, there is a huge possibility I may not be your friend ever again. I think it is quite obvious that I am not a quarrelsome, right? Celebrating this Holy Month of Ramadhan as well, I don't want to pick up another fight. I can't cope with things now. I can't understand you like I used to. Sometimes you can be so cordial, in other times you can be real sarcastic. Much to my expectation too, you do not love me as much as I love you. That is why I said, just go ahead with your studies and stop worrying about me 'cause you can't cope with two things or more at one time unless you are a genius. When it comes to what had happened, seriously I can't cope. 1 month and half, loads happened in between. I don't want cheesy things like that keep bugging my head on and on. I seem happy everywhere I expose myself, don't be fooled. Don't you be fooled too. People see me as a strong one, I am fragile inside. My words may be strong, my mind isn't. I lost my spirit again. And this time, it took my entire life. It isn't just about my studies and myself, it is far beyond that. IT TOOK AWAY MY HAPPINESS. Do you know that I wish, how I wish I am not passing through this hell. Yes, you can never imagine the pain I am carrying. That is why I feel it in a usual way when you keep saying about pain even though I understand the difficulties you are in. So, if you think this is just another same and lame obstacle we as human are facing, you're mistaken. Therefore, don't you say you understand how I felt and currently feel. I hope we will finally able to sort out things."

This is the real extract.