Final words.

I say,

"About those words I said telling you to go away, I really meant it. Things are getting harder, and about you, it did not turn out as I expected. I want to stop wasting my time counting on you and on hopes. I have loved you for a long time and that's not what I want to discuss. I know there is something fishy going on with your studies and yourself. Don't explain, okay? I don't feel like being a confidante. And you won't tell either. I am just a fragile, unfortunate delicate child who can't deal with too much pressure. I don't want us to get into another serious quarrel. I don't want that to happen 'cause if it happened once again, just once, there is a huge possibility I may not be your friend ever again. I think it is quite obvious that I am not a quarrelsome, right? Celebrating this Holy Month of Ramadhan as well, I don't want to pick up another fight. I can't cope with things now. I can't understand you like I used to. Sometimes you can be so cordial, in other times you can be real sarcastic. Much to my expectation too, you do not love me as much as I love you. That is why I said, just go ahead with your studies and stop worrying about me 'cause you can't cope with two things or more at one time unless you are a genius. When it comes to what had happened, seriously I can't cope. 1 month and half, loads happened in between. I don't want cheesy things like that keep bugging my head on and on. I seem happy everywhere I expose myself, don't be fooled. Don't you be fooled too. People see me as a strong one, I am fragile inside. My words may be strong, my mind isn't. I lost my spirit again. And this time, it took my entire life. It isn't just about my studies and myself, it is far beyond that. IT TOOK AWAY MY HAPPINESS. Do you know that I wish, how I wish I am not passing through this hell. Yes, you can never imagine the pain I am carrying. That is why I feel it in a usual way when you keep saying about pain even though I understand the difficulties you are in. So, if you think this is just another same and lame obstacle we as human are facing, you're mistaken. Therefore, don't you say you understand how I felt and currently feel. I hope we will finally able to sort out things."

This is the real extract.

Quote.

Ketika asyik berfikir aku terfikir tentang madah James Dean.
"dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today."
Itulah yang aku sedang cuba lakukan sekarang.

Hensem jugak James Dean masa muda! haha xD

Marlon Brando yang hot! Gosh yang ini memang hot dari dulu.

Nak boyfriend ala2 mereka boleh tak? hahaha.

so-called..bestie?

idg it,
'an arguement with so-called bestie'
what does it really mean?
no longer her bestfriend?
was she pretending to be someone's bestie all this while?
whatever it is. i think she wants a break up.
dont worryyy. she'll get it.

Oh goaaatsss still got lot of things to be posted but seriously got no time for it. been busy gileee with more and more events. so here it goes. my stupid simple blog a**hole. ahahahaha lol. last few days (dah lama dah) i watched naqib's orr shuld i say nakett's teenage riot. sooo *kewl*! bak ayat dia. then i found the vid on his myspace account 2 days later. damn i think he looked so keding in the vid. wonder why he still culdn't manage to gain some weights. err...guess i'll ask him the embed code. can watch it anytime if put it here. ah yeahh i think i wanna have some love boats..hehehe can find it at baker's cottage, one of my favourite kedai cake. wheneber pegi sane mesti beli! sgt yummy dan mengenyangkan. x caye tanye sape yg dah penah makan...iaitu saya. hahaha bengong xp today is suck and i think yesterday was better. curse you all f***ers. ehmmm iylia got a new myspace account. i think he missed it so much lol. he said 'this time lovers and haters are welcome!' haha. my opinion is mamat nih cm desperate je. haha ok ok its a bad joke =.=

tahu ape? tomorrow rase nak mkn waffle plak. td kt scp dah terbau2 mende tu kat blakang time tgh register org td tp x sempat nak isi perut nih lg..coz bile naik 2nd floor kat kedai makcik ina tu ayam sambal dia best plak! x sampai hati tgk ayam tu terbiar je xde pemakan. hahahahhahaha so beli je la. so perut ni delayed ke ptg for the waffle. but..pastu gatal lg naik gi kedai makcik tuh tgk kuih coz td dia kate cmni 'harini nak buat kuih favorite kau tuh hehe'. penghabisannya kenyang perut melantak 6 biji. besar2 plak tuh dia buat. hahahha tanye makcik tu asal cam terlebih manis ah kuih ni arini? dia ckp 'mmg saje acik suruh makcik tu buh gula lebih sket arini.bg spesel sket hehe' hahahahaha sumpah lawak makcik tuh. spesel kebendanye takat buh gula lebih 2 sudu. lain la kalau letak riben ke belon kat kuih tu. ngiahahaha adoi.

So me, with the biggest heart among all, hope to save the stomach for some waffles tomorrow! hahaha amin.