Al-Fatihah

Anyway, I missed something in my writing this morning. Wow, what a 'quote'? something-writing-morning. LOL. While I was just staring at people around me, kinda doing nothing, I received this one text message from an unknown number. 01688***** and I was like, number Sarawak ni. I thought it was someone who's reaching a wrong person. I opened the text message and it says,

Eira..fizz nie.mak i passed away last two weeks.

And I was like.. speechless. Ok honey, I know how you currently feel. I'll admit that I dropped some tears because she's feeling what I currently feel. Something 'good' we have in common now huh? Wicked, I know. Then out of my realization I began to sing She's Out of My Life. Wtf? Oh God.. Enough of the sadness, please. And we had a short conversation. Was indeed short but sweet though, 'cause we talked about how much fun we had in our old life. Something back in 2006 and all. When I think back, yeah, it is sweet both as in imagination and being real in the past. We were so close during fasting month. I missed those memories. It'll be one of the most memorable memories I'll never forget. And darling, be strong ok. I'll always be with you and I hope we can grow more stronger. I remember he said, there's nothing that can't be done if we raise out voice/hand as one. Together, let us recite some prayers for Fizz's mum. May she finally rest in peace. Al-Fatihah.

Something bigger

1) Beside ur lips, where is the favourite spot to get kissed?
= For my own sake, I don't like being kissed! Flying kiss pun tamau! Hahaha! but I like kissing people. how's that? bhahaha. But if somebody's totally desperate to kiss me, just leave a kiss on my forehead. That IS sweeter right? *grinned*

2)How did u feel when u woke up this morning?
= I did not sleep.

3) Who was the last person/people you took photo with?
= Aiman shahiranananan. :P

4) Would you consider urself spoiled?
= Haaa very much indeed. :D

5) Have u ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
= Yup.

6) Do you want someone to be dead?
= I've had enough with the dead. I don't want anymore dead people.

7) What does your last text message say?
= Check alkashah ada hutang buku tak.

8) What are you thinking right now?
= Nothing.

9) Do you want someone to be with you right now?
= Very much indeed.

10) What was the time you went to bed last night?
= Told ya! 2315.

11) Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now?
= A gift from my sister.

12) Is someone on your mind right now?
= I think about his/her most of the time, and that means it's a yes.

13) Who was the last person who texted you?
= My sister.

14) TEN lucky person

do it.do it.do it :D :

1. Only God knows who
2. Johnny Depp
3. Zac Efron
4. Catherine Zeta-Jones
5. Angelina Jolie
6. Miley Cyrus
7. LMP
8. Scarlett Johansson
9. Allison Iraheta
10. YOU, whoever is reading right now. :)

1) Who is no. 2 ? Having a relationship with?
= A very hunky-talented-actor. Damit, don't you know him? ohhh awwww auuwwww, how I wish he is having relationship with me! Bhahahaha! Her wife is Vanessa Paradis.

2) Is no. 3 a male or a female?
= Male.

3) If no. 7 and no.1 get together, would it be a good?
= OMG.. I did not expect this. Coincidentally, they had a serious relationship long time ago. But then they ended up being good friends.

4) What is no.1 studying about?
= He studied about life and how it treated him.

5) When was the last time you chatted with them?
= Haha. Me them, chatting? You must be joking. Who knows, maybe I chat with number 10 everyday. :P

6) Is no. 4 single?
= Absolutely nope.

7) Say something about no. 6
= She's fun to be with, can act, can sing, sweet & has a very sporting daddy!

8) What do you think about no. 3 & no.5 being together?
= aha, aha, ahahahahahaha. What's with Zac being together with Angie?? Firstly, they don't suit each other at all. Baby V might dump Zac or working on a revenge but Brad's gonna kill Zac for that. And I'm not gonna let my honey die for nothing!!!

9) Describe no.9
= She's my gay crush, Adam Lambert's best friend.

10) Do you like no. 8?
= Very much indeed! She's got everything.

11) How about no. 10?
= Whoever reading this, yes don't worry. I like anyone of you. :)

Youuuuuuuuuuu (sapa-sapa je lah) hati I *dup dap dup dap macam motobot la* tak henti-henti tengok gambar niiiii. His reddish lips, auuwwww! He IS my vanilla ice. I'll tell, it really takes my whole strength everytime I take a look at him. Damitt, ok I'm weak, I'll admit. Damit, don't laugh.

Morningmusume

I'm currently working on some private videos. Doakan saya berjaya yea! Hahaha. Cakap macam susah je, tapi memang macam tutt gila bila dalam process dia buat hal. Actually dah siap but hasilnya tak memuaskan. Kena all and out balik semula. Mami! tolong i! haha. Semalam buat fetama kalinya setelah berapa lama tak dapat tidur yg nyenyak dan enak akhirnya aku dapat juga tidur awal sikit! Alhamdulillah. Haha. Ceritanya begini. Semalam lepas sahur aku tak tidur. Bajet konon nak online la kejap. Kejap kejap hamik kau, 6 jam online. Biasa la aku selalu online tak sedar alam sekeliling! Berada dalam dunia sendiri je! Haha. Pastu dah terasa ala-ala ngantuk dan hampir nak sorongkan bantal, tiba-tiba dapat message dari Kak Mira petang ni macam biasa. Sumpah kalau dia tak ingatkan aku memang terlupa. Honestly, kali terakhir aku keluar rumah ialah pada 25/8 yg lalu, kalau tak salah la. So, aku memang tak tau apa jadi kat luar rumah, for example new students ke, studio nak roboh ke, kucing nenek rumah sebelah hilang ke apa-apa la. They miss me? Perhaps they don't. Haha. If yes pun it's not like I care. But I've already promised someone to help her post kad raya and the next thing I knew, aku tak keluar rumah pastu. Hahaha. Kesempatan yg ada semalam telah aku gunakan untuk meminta maaf daripadanya! Sorry akak! Ok sambung balik. Dengan langkah separuh longlai aku mengerah sekuat tenaga bersiap-siap untuk ke CP. Pukul 4 petang, my mum and I pun bertolak menghantar aku. Pstt! Buat pertama kalinya aku bebtol pakai mask kat luar! Haha! Sekarang baru aku paham perasaan orang yg memakai benda alah tu. Pelik sangat ke rupa sampai semua orang jakun nak pandang? Rilek-rilek la weh. Musim kot sekarang. Kelas start pukul 5.15. Ada 1 jam lagi. Pegi kedai kat lif tu jap beli mag. Nampak Galaxie je terus sambar! Serious aku macam nak nangis bila pikir balik last issue tak sempat beli. Cover depan the hunky-dories from Gossip Girl okaaayy! I like both Ed Westwick and Chace Crawford but it seems everyone's into Chuck and not Nate. Wtfkk. Hahaha. Aku dengki sudah. Yeah guys, I'm into CC & Nate Archibald. Don't bother. TK my cousin, she likes Chuck. I don't really know if she likes Ed as well. But she likes CC as CC. Like she said, hot stuff, sapa tak minat wey. HAHA, yup girl gimme ten! But I'm totally taknak kalah dengan dia! Go Nate! HAHAHA. Beside them, ada interview dengan JoBros! Grr! Oh ohh btw, Kevin nak naik pelamin! Congrats congrats. Now you're officially off the market. Bhahaha. Kelas habis pukul 7 kott. Tu pun suara abah yg kejutkan sebab aku tertidur kat meja (kepala kat meja okay). Kami keluar pukul 7.10 and normally it'll take 10 minutes to reach home. Macam lipas kudung la kemas-kemas apa yg patut pastu drive balik. Ngan jalan jam nenas lagi, ngan berbukanya pukul 7.17 semua. Haish, aku tak pikir sempat sampai rumah tapi sampai juga before time. Alhamdulillah. Abah agak bising juga sebab dia tak suka kelas sampai pukul 7, sebab nanti balik tak sempat solat Asar. Entahlah aku pun tak tau jalan penyelesaiannya kepada semua masalah yg dihadapi. Bersabar sudah. Lepas buka, semua buat hal memasing. Aku masuk bilik buat apa yg patut, pastu lepak dengan Hasya and the gang. It was fun though, 'cause we didn't fight. *grinned* Pukul 10 bukak tv, cerita Batman Forever, damn Nicole Kidman gila lawa. Minggu lepas pun Batman, minggu ni Batman lagi, semua series ke dia nak tayang? Minggu depan kalau tak Batman & Robin, mesti Batman Return. I'll admit Batman is my favorite superhero but.. AKU DAH MUAK LA WEYYY. Tah berapa puluh kali tengok dah. Hasya pulak banyak tanya like gila-gila pasal cerita tu, like 'dia ni macam ni kan maksu, lepas ni dia ni kan, bla3' and I was like, hasya. Maksu dah tengok cerita ni sejak korang belum lahir lagi, dah muak dah, tiap-tiap Christmas dulu semua channel rebut-rebut nak tayang movie Batman. Tak payah tanya lagi, ok? Terus dia terdiam. Good girl. Baru sejam cerita tu, mata aku dah terkuncup-kuncup tahan ngantuk, aku pun terlelap. Tersedar bila mak aku ambik remote tukar channel. Mula-mula cam nak protes je, tapi mengenangkan mata dah macam kena hempap gajah bunting aku pun berlalu ngan longlai naik atas. Pukul 11 kot tidur! Geeez, aku sendiri tak caya. Geram. Geram sebab mood nak tengok tv dah dikacau rasa ngantuk yg keterlaluan. Geram sebab tak dapat online. Geram sebab tak dapat tahan rasa ngantuk. In the end, aku bersyukur sebenarnya sebab dia bagi aku rasa betul-betul nak tidur. Rasa yg dah lama hilang sebelum ni. Consequence-nya juga aku tak sempat nak memikirkan masalah aku. Yeap, that's what I want. I know I cannot run and hide from it but at least I don't think about it that much. Although my heart is aching again this morning when I see you. Get busy, it's the perfect remedy. At least for the time being. Woaargghhh ngantuknyaaaaa!! Apa aku merepek pagi-pagi buta ni? Haha. Buta ke? Oh, yg ngantuk tahap gaban tu sebab tidur malam tu 1 jam je! pastu kena bangun sahur. Haha! Mana tak ngantuk! Actually, I don't have much to tell. Last but not least, thank you God. :)

Dust in the eyes

First of all, I just want to say, I love this song because I'm really into the melody. FYI, the video, the drama and the casts have no connection at all to the song.


It was pretty shocking to know that it actually got loads of snogging-passionately-scenes to see. Just look at 3.17, the guy apparently stared at her boob before agreed to make love. Demit, bulan puasa kot. HAHA.

Move along bebeh!

Dangg, this is just awesome. I wish I have those legs, those moves, those spirits. Ah, I'm too tired. Save the last dance for me baby.

I love you, friend.

Snoopy, on your birthday honey, I just don't know the right things to say, but this is my speech. I'm so sorry for all my wrongdoings and the pain I caused. I'm sorry if I hurt you without my knowing. I never meant to abuse you, to abandon you, to neglect you. It has never crossed my mind at all to do things that maybe caused you to dislike or hate me, or bash me, or put a gun to my head, shoot me.. Okay, I exaggerate. I love you like what I feel for everyone else. I'd do anything to see you happy. Just tell me what it is, I'll do it if I could. See, how could I do something that is totally unacceptable? I just don't know how to say it to you, how much you mean to me. I don't know how to show my love. When I'm with you, I'm clueless, at times I don't talk that much 'cause I just don't know what else to say. I don't know how to please you. I don't know what you want. The biggest thing is, I don't know what do you feel about me. Okay, if you say why I didn't ask? I'm sorry 'cause I'm-I'm gutless. I'm not like your other friends who can simply move forward. It takes time. And if it is something you cannot wait, well all I can say is my apologies. May you'll get what you've always wanted. I'll pray to God to bless you, to give you anything you want, anything that can make you happy. Happy sweet 19th birthday, pal. Hope you had a good 18-years-old life and it'll get better. I'm sorry I can't say this right to your face. Yeah, I'm gutless.

TOC

I'm bored. Hell bored bored bored. Tired of circumstances. Aaaaarrggghhhhh!