It's not that I don't want to be there but..

I know the fact that u are there for me. always be there. not only u. anyone called best friend wuld do the same. i think this is just the real beginning of our endlessly friendship. fyi im not being away for God's sake because of this small thing. just because i wrote bout u and the guy u love the most. and sorry to say, i dont want any publicities by doing that. i understand ur feeling and as for u. u have to understand mine too. well at least, try to. so i have my job done now. what about u? ;) i away membawa hati yang sepi, fikiran yang keliru & perasaan yang terkilan. and about the meeting. what have i done so bad that she felt so stressed out? im sorry but, dont talk about some stupid egos here. im not the only one here who have egos. and haha, im not terasa at all. bapak bodo sungguh ayat tersebut. i admit that i was wrong and i made mistakes. but its not that i admit to show that i mengalah or what. i just felt that i have to say sorry to change the stupid perception again about, something called EGO. u can go ahead with the perjumpaan eventhough i wont be there. come on la, u guys can live without me aite? guess she wuld surely say 'YES'. DIA yg membuatkan persahabatan ni tergantung tanpa penjelasan. mcm u pernah kata.. i think if i be there pun wuld not make any perbezaan.. i just got the feeling that i dont deserve to be there on that day. well if ever change my mind, we still could meet up. and i'll let u know. dont worry.